I am DEFINITELY back now. That last dormant phase wasn't even shaken off by the "blog.co.uk misses you" email that should have shamed me back into action. The truth is, I've been shockingly stressed recently, to the degree that I couldn't even blog to help calm myself down half the time. And when I did it was on LiveJournal, because that's the one that I have tabbed on my browser!

I got my rejection letter from Oxford earlier. Even though I know that just last year they rejected 10 thousand applicants who I'm sure were mostly very good candidates, it's not all that comforting. I was sure I didn't mind, and that I'll be perfectly happy going to King's College London (now my top choice) but it's just...it's Oxford. And I was there and spoke to them and had a chance and I didn't make it. :(

I also got turned down from the Royal Academy and the Royal College, though that was mainly because I'd had flu the week before and hadn't played, and I'm not sure they realised that I'd actually been running a fever and throwing up (lovely!) rather than just a bad cold. I have 4 offers from Reading, Nottingham, Warwick and King's, and a reserve offer from Trinity college of music - I just have to wait for them to tell me if anyone's turned them down and if they decide to give the place to me. They'd better do it soon though, as soon as UCAS register Oxford's decision they'll want me to accept KCL etc. It's such a stupid messy balancing act! :(

Anyway, in other news everything is good. The clouds have just broken up a bit so I can see a bit of pretty sunset-ness on them and I'm going to the cinema later with Alex. Oh, and I even know what I'm doing for my English Lit and Ancient History courseworks, which is amazingly organised by my standards. Hell, I was even rereading the text earlier.